It is lonely to be a stay at home mom (sahm). I think it is one thing that people who work don't realize. I am sure that so many people wonder what there is to complain about because I don't have to go to a job, I get to stay home. I love my children and I love that I get to raise them myself but it is lonely. Most of my mommy friends have gone back to work or don't live close to me. So I spend my days breaking up fights, negotiating who gets to play with what toy, changing diapers, making meals, cleaning the house, driving to school, and now packing to move.
I have no one to talk to and its depressing. I wish I lived closer to home where I could see my mom on a daily basis or the friends I grew up with. I wish I could take my children to the preschool I went to. I wish I could call my friends when I just feel stressed and need someone to talk to, but I don't Don't get me wrong, I have amazing friends! A lot of them work though and honestly I don't want them to know how crazy I really am. Instead I call my sister, but she is working again and is either sleeping or taking classes. I call my mom, but she is recovering from surgery and teaching my niece. I call my husband but he is busy at work. I love the people in my life! I just wish I could see them more. So I started a blog.
I have no idea who reads my blog if anyone, but it is my way of talking it out. Sure I am making my fears, failures, and goals public but it is like a release. I can type and at least imagine someone reading it and possibly going through the same thing as me. I have more things I would like to do eventually but that is for another time.
On the plus side...IT'S FINALLY SPRING!
I am finally able to get out. I am finally able to have play dates, not just for the kids but for mommy. I am working on getting a workout schedule established. I can't wait to see what spring holds and I can't wait to get out and spend more time with the people who keep me sane! I feel like I am taking more steps in the right direction. I just ordered an activity tracker so I can see my goals and progress. I am eating healthier and am already down 6 lbs. I think that is pretty good for changing my diet but not working out! I am getting out more. I am seeing more friends and talking to people. I am trying to get active by taking walks with my 3 little men. I feel like I am making progress and I can't wait to see what is in store for me next!
Recipe from my 5 year old son:
Candied bananas.
Take one banana and cut it into slices. Coat it with honey and sprinkle it with sprinkles.
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