It's all in your head!

I came to a realization today.  I choose what I put into my mouth, not the other way around.  I know there are some people out there that are thinking, "well duh!"  For me though, giving into the cravings was an everyday occurrence.  If I wanted a milk shake I either got or made a milk shake, then felt really horrible and guilty afterwards.  Today I started my real food journey and I feel like I have been doing great.  Normally I would not know what to make for breakfast, especially when it has to be clean, but today we started our day with homemade apple cinnamon oatmeal.  Lunch was tough we were out going to stores and I was hungry!  Mmm Panera would be good or how about Subway?  I stuck to it though I beat those cravings and came home to leftover clean pizza!  How about that milk shake I was craving?  I blended frozen bananas, cocoa powder, powdered peanut butter, and milk.  There you have it a healthy "milkshake"!  It was when I was sipping on my "milkshake" that I had that little ah ha moment.  Hopefully it only gets easier from here!

Another thing I have discovered I have a choice about is my anxiety and depression.  I know that it is not just going to go away, but I also know that if I don't work to beat it I will just continue to struggle.  So I work to keep myself busy, this way I won't have time to think.  I quilt blankets, clean my house, and take care of my kids.  Oh and now I make homemade, healthy, and clean meals.  It may be happening slowly but I am starting to feel a difference.  Today when the anxiety hit instead of dwelling and calling everyone I know I sat down at my sewing machine. 

I am learning that I am on a journey not a race.  I would rather work to correct the problem than just simply "band aid"it.  I am learning I am stronger than I think and I can only get stronger!  I am in control of my decisions and from now on I am making them for the good of myself and my family.

Whole Wheat Pizza dough- I just made my basic dough with WW flour and Vital Wheat Gluten added.

2 1/2 -3 cups of Whole Wheat Flour
1 cup warm water
1 package dry active yeast
1 tbsp Vital  Wheat Gluten (Found in baking or health food section of grocery store)
1 tbsp Olive oil
1 tsp Salt

In a measuring cup combine warm water and yeast.  Let it sit a few minutes till it blooms (foams on the top.)  Combine all other ingredients in a mixing bowl, Kitchen aid, or food processor.  Add the water and mix until a ball forms, then knead for 10 minutes (this is where a food processor or Kitchen aid helps!)  Let rise for a few hours or overnight (this is important, I didn't let it rise enough and my crust was dense).   After a few hours roll out your dough and top as you would like.  I used homemade tomato sauce (tomato sauce, Italian seasoning, garlic powder, salt, and pepper), sausage, and fresh mozzarella cheese.

Tomorrow I will be having refrigerator oatmeal for breakfast.