On Sunday June 21, 2015 I went out to our garage to get ice cream from the freezer. It was Father's Day and we had just finished a smoked rib dinner, the ice cream was dessert. It never made it to our bowls.
When I opened up the freezer I discovered thawed ice cream and soft packages of meat. I grabbed the ice cream and carried it inside to break the news to my family.
At one point during the weekend, we don't know when, the temperature on our freezer was turned all the way up thawing everything in it. It was a sad day but the worst was yet to come.
The next day it was up to me, a person totally freaked out about meat juice, to clean up the lost meat and freezer. A full blown panic attack would soon ensue.
Monday morning, June 22, 2015, I entered the garage full of dread and determination. Slowly I opened the freezer hoping that maybe it cleaned itself during the night. It didn't. The smell of thawed corn was overwhelming. I need to work fast, especially since the baby discovered I left the room and is crying hysterically on the other side of the door.
I begin taking everything out, cringing each time I touch the still thawed meat. I did not think about the fact that the freezer itself needed to refreeze so much of the food was still thawed. The smell is starting to be a bit much, the baby is hitting the door, and my hands are covered in meat juice. Then I look at the bottom of the freezer.
On the bottom of the freezer is a frozen pool of meat juice. At this point I start to feel a little dizzy and see stars circling my head. Quickly I put the bad meat in a big bag and put it back into the freezer until garbage day tomorrow. As I put the bag back a whoosh of meat juice mist hits my face, at least that is what I imagine it is.
Enter full on panic mode. I grab the clorox wipes and wipe of my hands and arms. I enter the house and rush to the bathroom, sorry Colin, I need to clean my face. Oh my gosh, I have meat juice all over me and it is already making me sick. I am dying!! My heart is racing. I am dizzy. Seriously I am about to pass out! I wash my arms, hands, and face. I need to make sure I will be ok, so I call the only person who can calm me down at this point. My dad.
After being reassured that I did not get meat juice sprayed into my face, it did not get into my eyes, and I am not going to get sick, I go about my day. Tomorrow I need to finish cleaning out the freezer.
Tuesday June 23, 2015, I reenter the garage determined to finish cleaning the freezer and move all the bad meat to the curb. After putting all the good meat into coolers so it won't go bad, I pull out the huge bag of bad meat. I drag the heavy bag through the grass to the waiting garbage can. Bending at the knees I heft the bag into the can. Thankful that I am done with this part, I slowly turn back to the garage where the freezer waits.
I have to syke myself up a little before I open the freezer lid. I grab my gallon of HOT bleach water and slowly start pouring it in, I don't want it to splash up today. I run back in the house to get more water. Coming back out I discover, much to my relief, that the plugs were never put back into the bottom of the freezer. The nasty water is running out and I don't have to touch anything. Score!
Finally the freezer is clean. It smells like a swimming pool, but at least it is clean. Right?! The last part of this clean up is to clean the garage floor. Are you kidding me!? Now there is meat juice all over the floor. Why didn't I think about this before! Grabbing the hose and a push brush I clean the garage floor. Finally I am done!
Tuesday evening. Upon entering the garage to pull fresh meat from the freezer I make a troubling discovery. A carton of ice cream was left out the night before and there is no hope of saving it. With a heavy heart I throw it into the garbage. Rest in peace you delicious mint chocolate chip ice cream, you will be missed!
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Wednesday, June 24, 2015
Saturday, June 13, 2015
Food addiction
Where do I begin? I feel like I have always struggled with my weight and what I eat. I will be honest I love food. I love the way it tastes, I love the way it smells, and I love the way it looks. What I don't love is how I feel after I eat. I am an emotional eater. The more stressed I become the more I seem to eat. I then become stressed and upset about my weight and how I look. I then eat because I feel so crappy. It is a very damaging cycle.
I have tried limiting what I ate, that didn't work. I tried cutting out foods, it made me want them even more. I feel frustrated, disappointed, and embarrassed with myself. I know that losing weight and getting healthy is not always an easy thing to do but it is what I went to school for, it is a passion of mine, and I have done it before.
If I know all these things why am I struggling so much right now?
When I lost all the weight before I was overworked, overstressed, and depressed. What I was eating was the only thing I could control. Now I feel like I can't control anything. This past week has been the worst. We went to a wedding last week. I feel like all I did was eat. I had cake, cookies, pizza, fruit, pop, and salad. The salad was awesome so it makes me mad that I didn't stick with just that.
This week I decided I am going to put different diets to the test. Which one will work best for me. The only problem with that is, I then had the mindset that I had freedom to eat whatever I wanted until Monday when I start.
All this does is make me more depressed. So what do I do? How do I get out of this rut? I want to start living my life and stop watching it pass me by. I want to be able to enjoy things and not be exhausted all the time. I want to feel confident and beautiful. I want to be happy with who I am.
I want to run and play with my children.
This is the part where I plan. First step is to get motivated. If you have ever been depressed you know that this is something that is hard to do. So instead I will set a goal. My first goal is 30 minutes of exercise every day. Sounds simple enough right. Throw 3 little kids in the mix and it is not so easy. This is where step two comes into play.
Get up early to work out. Thinking about getting up early after staying up late doesn't sound like fun but I know it will be worth it and hopefully I will start going to bed earlier. My goal is to wake up at 6 am everyday! Wow 6 sounds really early. Funny thing is, I am usually up around this time. I will lay in bed for a bit praying the kids sleep a little longer, playing on my phone, or just trying to go back to sleep. Instead I need to start getting up.
My last step right now is to fight my food addictions. The first one I am fighting is sugar. I know I can do this. I know I can beat this. Two weeks with no sugar is no big deal. Oh but we have Colin's birthday party! That should be fun! I have already planned all the yummy sweet things I will be making. Luckily I have some healthy options and it is at the end of my sugar detox.
I need encouragement. I need motivation. They say it takes a community. Right now I need one. I ask that you will walk beside me. Keep pushing me, even when I push back. Guide me, lead me, support me!
I have tried limiting what I ate, that didn't work. I tried cutting out foods, it made me want them even more. I feel frustrated, disappointed, and embarrassed with myself. I know that losing weight and getting healthy is not always an easy thing to do but it is what I went to school for, it is a passion of mine, and I have done it before.
If I know all these things why am I struggling so much right now?
When I lost all the weight before I was overworked, overstressed, and depressed. What I was eating was the only thing I could control. Now I feel like I can't control anything. This past week has been the worst. We went to a wedding last week. I feel like all I did was eat. I had cake, cookies, pizza, fruit, pop, and salad. The salad was awesome so it makes me mad that I didn't stick with just that.
This week I decided I am going to put different diets to the test. Which one will work best for me. The only problem with that is, I then had the mindset that I had freedom to eat whatever I wanted until Monday when I start.
All this does is make me more depressed. So what do I do? How do I get out of this rut? I want to start living my life and stop watching it pass me by. I want to be able to enjoy things and not be exhausted all the time. I want to feel confident and beautiful. I want to be happy with who I am.
I want to run and play with my children.
This is the part where I plan. First step is to get motivated. If you have ever been depressed you know that this is something that is hard to do. So instead I will set a goal. My first goal is 30 minutes of exercise every day. Sounds simple enough right. Throw 3 little kids in the mix and it is not so easy. This is where step two comes into play.
Get up early to work out. Thinking about getting up early after staying up late doesn't sound like fun but I know it will be worth it and hopefully I will start going to bed earlier. My goal is to wake up at 6 am everyday! Wow 6 sounds really early. Funny thing is, I am usually up around this time. I will lay in bed for a bit praying the kids sleep a little longer, playing on my phone, or just trying to go back to sleep. Instead I need to start getting up.
My last step right now is to fight my food addictions. The first one I am fighting is sugar. I know I can do this. I know I can beat this. Two weeks with no sugar is no big deal. Oh but we have Colin's birthday party! That should be fun! I have already planned all the yummy sweet things I will be making. Luckily I have some healthy options and it is at the end of my sugar detox.
I need encouragement. I need motivation. They say it takes a community. Right now I need one. I ask that you will walk beside me. Keep pushing me, even when I push back. Guide me, lead me, support me!
Monday, June 8, 2015
Diet: Let me be your guinea pig!
What does the word diet mean to you? I'll be honest I have often cringed when I heard this word. To me a diet was all about restricting food, feeling hungry, and feeling unsatisfied.
According to the Merriam-Webster dictionary a diet is, "a: Food and drink regularly provided or conusmed, b: Habitual nourishment, c: The kind and amount of food prescribed for a person or animal for a special reason, or d: A regimen of eating and drinking sparingly so as to reduce one's weight."(merriam-webster, 2015)
I asked friends what the word diet meant to them and some replies were the same as what I thought before where the word diet makes you think of starving yourself. When I was in school my thought process on the word diet changed. I stopped thinking of it as a way to lose weight and often feel hungry and started looking at it as a lifestyle change.
The word diet and the word dieting are two different things. Diet talks about the food you eat, fruits and vegetables are part of a balanced diet. Dieting is something you do to lose weight or make a change in you life, I am currently dieting to lose weight. We all eat foods as part of a diet because a diet is what you eat not what you do. Anything you eat is part of your diet. Diet is not a bad word. It does not mean hunger or limiting yourself. Your diet is your eating habits!
There are so many diets out there to try though and it is hard to determine what will work best for you. I know I often have people telling me about the different diets they are on and the changes they have made but I believe that just because a diet works for one person doesn't mean it will work for another.
Here is what I have decided to do and I need your help to do it. I am going to try several lifestyle diets and see what I think works the best and which I personally like. I am going into this unbiased and trying not to discriminate, I will even eat seafood if it calls for it! I will journal what I eat and how I feel. I know it is a short time but I will try each for 2 weeks. I feel this will help me at least get a feel for each diet. I will not be trying any of the fad, lose weight fast diets, I think they are unhealthy and not helpful. So what is a diet you would like to see me try? Leave a comment and let me know what you think I should try. I will be researching each diet and seriously trying as many as I can. Wish me luck and watch for my weekly updates.
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According to the Merriam-Webster dictionary a diet is, "a: Food and drink regularly provided or conusmed, b: Habitual nourishment, c: The kind and amount of food prescribed for a person or animal for a special reason, or d: A regimen of eating and drinking sparingly so as to reduce one's weight."(merriam-webster, 2015)
I asked friends what the word diet meant to them and some replies were the same as what I thought before where the word diet makes you think of starving yourself. When I was in school my thought process on the word diet changed. I stopped thinking of it as a way to lose weight and often feel hungry and started looking at it as a lifestyle change.
The word diet and the word dieting are two different things. Diet talks about the food you eat, fruits and vegetables are part of a balanced diet. Dieting is something you do to lose weight or make a change in you life, I am currently dieting to lose weight. We all eat foods as part of a diet because a diet is what you eat not what you do. Anything you eat is part of your diet. Diet is not a bad word. It does not mean hunger or limiting yourself. Your diet is your eating habits!
There are so many diets out there to try though and it is hard to determine what will work best for you. I know I often have people telling me about the different diets they are on and the changes they have made but I believe that just because a diet works for one person doesn't mean it will work for another.
Here is what I have decided to do and I need your help to do it. I am going to try several lifestyle diets and see what I think works the best and which I personally like. I am going into this unbiased and trying not to discriminate, I will even eat seafood if it calls for it! I will journal what I eat and how I feel. I know it is a short time but I will try each for 2 weeks. I feel this will help me at least get a feel for each diet. I will not be trying any of the fad, lose weight fast diets, I think they are unhealthy and not helpful. So what is a diet you would like to see me try? Leave a comment and let me know what you think I should try. I will be researching each diet and seriously trying as many as I can. Wish me luck and watch for my weekly updates.
Want to see more of this journey?
Follow me on Facebook: Get Moving Mom
Subscribe to me on YouTube: Get Moving Mom or https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCkRo-KrjQ5Mc_gleFGeqpsg
Diet. (n.d.). Retrieved June 7, 2015, from http://www.merriam-webster.com/dictionary/diet
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