Here it is day 2 and I really want a piece of chocolate. So how did I do yesterday? Well I didn't eat the chocolate and I started a 30 day yoga challenge. As I mentioned before I don't think changing a diet is easy. I have been eating the way I do for the past 5 years and I'm expected to completely change it overnight? Not going to happen for me. If I would to look at my diet this way I would be setting myself up for failure. I know a lot of people that are able to just completely change how they do things are never look back. I have tried. Three years ago I started the eat clean diet. I did great for 2 weeks until I went to a party and someone commented that they would never do a diet like that because its too hard. So I gave up. I have tried other times also to dramatically change my diet with the same results. So this time I am doing it slowly. I plan to clean up my diet in 8 weeks and then start to eliminate sugar. In the meantime if you see me eating something you don't think is clean, cut me a little slack.
I am hoping people will join me. Once I get the hang of this blog thing I want to be posting menus and recipes.
The big reason for me changing the way I eat is my depression and anxiety. Where do I begin. I feel like people think it is an easy fix. Just get over it is something I hear a lot. It's not that easy though. There are days that I feel good, I can function and get things done. Other days the only reason I get out of bed is because I know my kids need me. It's hard to explain it to someone who has never experienced it and when they just brush it off it hurts. I'm sad, I'm angry, and I'm scared. I don't know how to stop it. I am trying but it is really hard.
I'm not perfect and I don't want to be. I just want to be me.
Saturday, February 28, 2015
Friday, February 27, 2015
Clean eating day 1: There is NOTHING to eat!
So here we go, day 1 of my getting healthy journey.
Today is going to be a crazy day. We are selling our house and have a showing in the middle of the day. Trying to get the house pristine with 3 little boys running around is not fun! Normally we would have an open house when my husband is home and we can do the cleaning together, that just didn't work out today. It's times like these that I feel I am failing as a mom. Stick them in front of a movie so I can get the cleaning done. Then I think about the fact that this is just a small season in our lives. Very soon we will have a new house and hopefully they won't be watching much TV.
Okay back to getting healthy. Today I came downstairs and started cleaning, and what did I want to eat for breakfast? A peanut butter and jelly! I didn't give in though. Instead I remembered an organic granola that I bought last week and devoured a bowl. Its hard when you go from eating a lot and a lot of sweets to trying to eat healthy. It kind of sucks! How can you make an egg taste like a chocolate peanut butter cup or a salad taste like a hamburger. One thing I try to do is to have healthy snacks ready. I personally like to have hard boiled eggs, it's easy to just grab and eat. Plus it has a protein, which will help keep you full a little longer. Eat it on its our, with a salad, or a little hot sauce.
When it comes to my diet the first few weeks of changing my diet I am taking it easy. Trying to dramatically change a diet often fails for me so I am taking it slow this time. The first thing I will eliminate is chocolate. That delicious little treat that I can eat all day long and not even care that it makes me feel bloated. At least I waited till after Valentine's Day to make this decision, but I do have a stockpile of clearance Valentine's candy!
Exercise should be interesting today. With this open house in the middle of the day my husband will be coming home early and then going back to work and getting home late. So the question of the day, how to work out with 3 little kids? Have them join me! My oldest loves yoga and Pilates, while my middle loves cardio, and my baby just jumps in his jumper. So I will grab and old workout DVD and see how much I can get through. They do have lots of websites, apps, and TV channels with workouts. One I like is DailyBurn.com, they even offer a 30 day trial to see if you like and will use it. It's important to see what works best for you. With my depression getting out the door to the gym doesn't really work. So I do my best to do something at home.
I honestly don't know how the rest of the day will go but as long as I don't give into the chocolate cravings and I work out I will feel like I accomplished something. It can only get easier right?
Today is going to be a crazy day. We are selling our house and have a showing in the middle of the day. Trying to get the house pristine with 3 little boys running around is not fun! Normally we would have an open house when my husband is home and we can do the cleaning together, that just didn't work out today. It's times like these that I feel I am failing as a mom. Stick them in front of a movie so I can get the cleaning done. Then I think about the fact that this is just a small season in our lives. Very soon we will have a new house and hopefully they won't be watching much TV.
Okay back to getting healthy. Today I came downstairs and started cleaning, and what did I want to eat for breakfast? A peanut butter and jelly! I didn't give in though. Instead I remembered an organic granola that I bought last week and devoured a bowl. Its hard when you go from eating a lot and a lot of sweets to trying to eat healthy. It kind of sucks! How can you make an egg taste like a chocolate peanut butter cup or a salad taste like a hamburger. One thing I try to do is to have healthy snacks ready. I personally like to have hard boiled eggs, it's easy to just grab and eat. Plus it has a protein, which will help keep you full a little longer. Eat it on its our, with a salad, or a little hot sauce.
When it comes to my diet the first few weeks of changing my diet I am taking it easy. Trying to dramatically change a diet often fails for me so I am taking it slow this time. The first thing I will eliminate is chocolate. That delicious little treat that I can eat all day long and not even care that it makes me feel bloated. At least I waited till after Valentine's Day to make this decision, but I do have a stockpile of clearance Valentine's candy!
Exercise should be interesting today. With this open house in the middle of the day my husband will be coming home early and then going back to work and getting home late. So the question of the day, how to work out with 3 little kids? Have them join me! My oldest loves yoga and Pilates, while my middle loves cardio, and my baby just jumps in his jumper. So I will grab and old workout DVD and see how much I can get through. They do have lots of websites, apps, and TV channels with workouts. One I like is DailyBurn.com, they even offer a 30 day trial to see if you like and will use it. It's important to see what works best for you. With my depression getting out the door to the gym doesn't really work. So I do my best to do something at home.
I honestly don't know how the rest of the day will go but as long as I don't give into the chocolate cravings and I work out I will feel like I accomplished something. It can only get easier right?
Thursday, February 26, 2015
I'm going on a diet tomorrow! This time is going to be different, it's going to work! I swear I have made these statements so many times in my life and really didn't change anything. There was that one time though. I ate right and worked out a lot. I lost 70 lbs and felt amazing. I had so much self confidence and barely had any anxiety. I met my husband during this time in my life. Not long after we met he moved and I soon followed. I left everything. I didn't have a job or any friends in my new location. I ate to cover up the loneliness, I was depressed and getting fat. Fast forward 9 years, 3 babies, 1 miscarriage, and 90 new pounds. I could blame it on the baby weight but really the youngest is 7 months and I had lost all the baby weight right after he was born. Then reality set in, I am a stay at home mom to 3 very energetic little boys. Enter postpartum depression.
I believe that health related problems can be caused and solved with food. If you eat crap food you feel like crap. If you eat good food you feel good. So why not put my theory to the test. What do I have to lose other than weight? I don't feel like things can get worse I already have crippling anxiety and depression.
I need to change something and know that I will not do it on my own. To make the overweight matters worse, I'm a nutritionist. I know how to eat and what to eat, but instead I sip on a chocolate milk shake while typing this. So I am putting my journey out there, and just like my other projects it can only get better as I go.
So here is the plan, it is really simple. To start, I will work out for at least 20 minutes a day. It doesn't matter what it is as long as I am physically active for at least 20 minutes. Next, I will be trying different "diets" to see what works for me. First diet, clean eating. I feel like I need to be accountable to someone so I will be documenting my journey, the good, the bad, and the ugly. Will diet and exercise help cure my PPD and PPA? Join my journey and see! Let me know what you have done to change your mood or lose weight.
I believe that health related problems can be caused and solved with food. If you eat crap food you feel like crap. If you eat good food you feel good. So why not put my theory to the test. What do I have to lose other than weight? I don't feel like things can get worse I already have crippling anxiety and depression.
I need to change something and know that I will not do it on my own. To make the overweight matters worse, I'm a nutritionist. I know how to eat and what to eat, but instead I sip on a chocolate milk shake while typing this. So I am putting my journey out there, and just like my other projects it can only get better as I go.
So here is the plan, it is really simple. To start, I will work out for at least 20 minutes a day. It doesn't matter what it is as long as I am physically active for at least 20 minutes. Next, I will be trying different "diets" to see what works for me. First diet, clean eating. I feel like I need to be accountable to someone so I will be documenting my journey, the good, the bad, and the ugly. Will diet and exercise help cure my PPD and PPA? Join my journey and see! Let me know what you have done to change your mood or lose weight.
Subscribe to:
Comments (Atom)